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February 10, 2009
PAINFUL MEMORIES


My prediction turn out to be right, I really hope this is just a nightmare. I'd never imagined things to turned out this way. We were still fine a few days ago, what made her change her mind so suddenly. I trust and believed her that she wasn't that sort of girl, never to be expected, things turn out ironically. I was dazzled, shocked and find myself unable to talk. I dunno wad to talk anymore, It seems that I was petrified. Tears coming down and pain aches my heart sudden. i didn't cry nor shout, this pain is so nostalgic. It occurred to me last year, and this pain came back again. The saddened pain of my heart, and tears flowing with repent, this is just a nightmare. I wonder why did she date me when she knw this would be the outcome. I really wanted to believe her, but I can't seem to do so. I was too stupid, I should've known. Why didn't i think over it carefully last time, and now, i'm hurt once more. If i was able go back to the past, I'd have made sure my mind not to date her. I wonder how myself will be accepting this situation, where I can't really brace up myself and stand up once again. Maybe we weren't meant to be.. If only I listened to him…

I was afraid that I was hurt again, and now, it really is..
The worst nightmare I've faced, I really dread this kind of situation. I'm really useless, if I were more handsome and dashing like my brother, I wouldn't mind
I was planning to be with her on the 14 of Feb, seems like i'm just wishing something which can’t be fulfilled. I have no idea how to face her anymore, let alone being frens, even now I dun dre to talk to her. This time is totally different from last time, we were able to reconcile, but I doubt this time will. I have a doubt and trust about her.

I was still planning to continue this kind of feeling for maybe a year, our feelings didn’t even last for a week, what’s this supposed to mean? I wonder if I’m able to smile again, the ways and sweetness of a smile, I’ve totally forgotten about it. I really wanted to forget everything, about her, and everyone else.

Wonder if there’s such remedy, guess I’ll spend the valentine day alone again this year. If only she can read my mind, how I felt, that would be great. But, none has ever read my mind including my siblings, they dun care anyway. Like other people, I can sense what they are thinking, but people can’t sense mine, that’s good too. I’d like to have all the memories, the painful thoughts shared only to myself. The one who can read my mind like a book, is probably only him. Yeah, he knows me the best.


Distance hearts when rejoined as one,may find the light within
4:42 AM.